Our trip
Josh and I decided to take a trip to the mountains for a day. Here are some photos of our breakfast buffet this morning. It was a bit rainy but still beautiful!
Traveling together gives you an opportunity to experience a new perspective outside of your habitual routines and creature comforts. It has been an amazing trip so far! We are taking a relaxing break now before another activity and then heading back this evening. One thing I learned here with Josh is that I still have a lot to surrender.
I noticed (and Josh pointed out) where I was trying to control. I wanted to go to a sound healing experience and he did not. I got upset because I wanted to do things physically together during our trip and asked him again to come along. He shared that I didn't need to always be physically together to be as one and he prefered to nap at our hotel while i went. I agreed but was still feeling a little sad about it.
I turned towards the Mirror Exercise and chose to surrender even deeper. I released a lot of fear I had, leftover from the ages of experiencing abandonment by former partners, friends and family when we wanted different things and went our separate ways because of it. Not so with your Twin as you are always One.
As I let go even deeper, I drove to the sound healing location and the drive became more and more beautiful. The red buds, dogwood, and azalea were in full bloom in unison. I remembered that God was my lover and allowed Him to romance me with this gorgeous spring scene.
The sound healing was longer than I expected but very deep. The room was filled with ten gongs six singing bowls, and various percussive and harmonic instruments. As I lay down and received the vibration of each sound, I invited myself to relax and experience whatever it brought up. It was wonderful!
I drove back to our hotel and I noticed I was still holding onto something. I felt anxious that I was coming back so late and I was getting hungry. I chose to surrender even more and just allowed the feeling to unfold, whatever it is.
When I got back Josh was awake and I invited him to dinner. We got to the restaurant and sat down. The server came to take our orders, and Josh shared he was fasting and didn't want to eat. I ordered my food and once the server walked away with our menus. I noticed I felt upset.
I was upset not because Josh was fasting, but because it was another experience we "weren't sharing in together." Josh was also upset because he felt i was trying to control what he ate. We both had a lot of feelings to process and sat at the table as we processed them.
I turned to the Mirror Exercise and let go of a deeper layer of believing Josh was separate from me and that we were complements, not carbon copies, and that I didnt 'need' him to do exactly what I was doing in order to experience joy. Josh claimed his freedom and autonomy within once more and let go of the idea someone else had power over him, that even if I was upset, he was free to do as he pleased and I would work through my upset and not abandon him or punish him as people in the past did.
In the past I would have perhaps needed to leave the table because I would have found the emotions too intense to handle. But from knowing how this process works, and from a lot of practice, support, coaching and watching TFAS, I was able to remain present and continue to move through the challenge.
Josh and I fell asleep practically the moment our heads hit the pillow. It felt so good to sleep as long as we wanted. This morning we awoke and went downstairs to the brunch buffet. We both ate our fills and were happy and at peace.
The challenges we worked through last night were all part of the experience and I'm grateful for them. We've come to learn there is a cycle and rhythm of the blocks as they arise and to not be afraid of them. Only through working the process and incorporating the Teachings of Union as a way of life were we able to remain together and continue.
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