Our Story
Someone asked me in the Twin Flames Universe Open Forum to share what TFAS was and how I arrived at having a date night with Josh last night because of it. She had seen me post a picture of the two of us smiling together at a restaurant. What she was really asking is how she could have this, too!
If you’ve been following my blog, and YouTube channel, you would know my journey wasn’t easy. And, it’s only just begun, too, since we’re still working towards Harmonious Twin Flame Union, which is a different spiritual vibration, and then from there we will be working towards Perfect Union.
I have complete faith in our success because I can now see all that we have previously moved through and that we have Jeff and Shaleia’s Teachings of Union.
The beginning
Josh and I didn’t know we were Twin Flames in 2018 when we met. We started dating each other in the way we had begun many of our previous relationships, but things that we learned to do in the past weren’t working between us. We were Twin Flames and we later learned that Twin Flames follow a different set of rules than other relationships. We were Mirroring our inner wounds to each other for healing but we didn't have the right tools and support. Things felt intense, and I was not proud of how I responded to some of the triggers. I was seeing signs and synchronicities daily, and didn't know what they meant. Other people thought I was going nuts when I told them.
Josh and I weren't able to stay together after many intense fights, and went spiraling away from each other. I remember Josh telling me one night "I never want to see you again." I felt hopeless, anxious, and deeply sad. I would do anything to be with him again and come back into harmony. I could barely sleep or function at work.
I scoured the internet for answers. That’s when I found TFAS: Twin Flame Ascension School. I found Jeff and Shaleia on YouTube. They spoke of love and Union and shared that there was a path to being with your Twin Flame, who was one with you, and the path was based on love, not separation. That the way was with God within, not through contriving a set of behavior or wearing a mask. I invested in the school and started watching their classes and working with a coach right away.
Learning the Teachings of Union
I had about one Ascension Coaching session per week and watched about one class per day. I was letting go of limiting beliefs one layer at a time. I was learning what it really meant to love myself. I was sleeping through the night again and I was able to go to work! Little by little, Josh began to contact me again, and we were back in touch!
In January 2019, I joined other TFAS students Live in New York where Jeff and Shaleia recorded three TFAS classes with their students. I got to be a part of it, and they invited me to join the Wednesday 7pm group. I was awestruck at the love I was being given and I was receiving. This inspired me to give back - I wanted others to have this too! Around this time I became an Ascension Coach in order to give to others what I had received.
As I look back at myself in the recorded TFAS classes, I barely recognize myself because I can now see that even though I had healed a lot, it was only the tip of the iceberg. I was still resistant to love and arrogant in many places, but what mattered most is that I was choosing love at the core. I was innocent and healing.
In March 2019 that year, I moved in with Josh! And in July of that year, we both went to the Live Twin Flame Workshop in Toronto and attained Harmonious Union! It was the best experience of my life. I was so grateful to Jeff and Shaleia and to God for the way to heal separation permanently.
We had driven all the way to Toronto from North Carolina where we lived and on the way back, Josh expressed that being around so much love and friendship with others in the Twin Flames Universe Community felt like being at summer camp (one of the most joyful experiences of his life.) He felt loved, included, and home with the Church of Union.
Going deeper into core wounds and trauma healing
From August 2019 to December 2022, Josh and I went through even deeper healing than I ever knew was possible. Within our Union, there was something underneath that I could never put a finger on, but just didn’t feel right. We were no longer in harmony. I continued to put one foot in front of the other, and for a while I didn’t see what was going on. Still I persisted.
Josh would go away from days and sometimes weeks at a time, saying it was for work. He wouldn't contact me at all during these moments, and I felt something was off. I just didn’t know what it was. I continued to heal, but we began getting in huge fights again, and I found that it was next to impossible to stay together in a compassionate way. After months of deliberation and working with my coaches, I decided the best thing to do was for us to heal living separately for a time. I moved out.
The following spring, I learned I had ovarian cancer. Things happened so swiftly from diagnosis to surgery to moving to South Carolina to be with my family during my chemo process. I was in touch with Josh from time to time, and learned that he no longer had a job or a home. It seemed like we both hit rock bottom.
It was the most challenging period of my life, and I was tested in ways that I never imagined I would be. And yet, through it all, I felt a peace that was unlike any I had experienced. I had a deep inner knowing that everything was going to be ok. All through this time, I was never alone. I had Twin Flame Ascension School, the community, and my coaches.
Many people would have quit when faced with these challenges. I did move through some very challenging feelings of shame at not having been able to maintain my Harmonious Union, and defeat. But I never, ever gave up!
What I discovered with my coaches Laurentiu and Alexandra is that I had unresolved trauma. I decided to go through the Mind Alignment Process to heal it. I had my MAP healing at the very same time that I was going through surgery and chemo, and I know for a fact that without MAP my cancer healing would not have been successful. MAP helped me heal the root of the spiritual block cancer represented, and I was able to move through the medical processes with ease because of the work. What would have been more trauma added into my consciousness turned out to be a peaceful process.
I went to the Live Twin Flame Workshop in Sedona and I remember telling Jeff and Shaleia there that healing cancer was easier than healing separation consciousness for me. To bless my healing, Jeff and Shaleia gave me a gift in my GoFundMe account that I received humbly and with great gratitude. It was hard for me to imagine so much love was possible. Without this, I would not have been able to move out of my mom’s home (where I wasn’t loved) and have my own place which was much more supportive to my healing. I am so grateful to Jeff and Shaleia for their love and compassion to me.
After chemo was finished, Josh came down to South Carolina and stayed with me for some time. It was then that I learned why things had felt so off when we lived together previously. I learned that Josh had a major substance abuse issue. He had been in and out of centers in the past year when I was going through chemo. And when he stayed with me, I learned he began using again. Because I could not handle his behavior towards me when he was using, I asked him to leave.
Persisting Despite All Odds
You may wonder how it was that I continued to persist and have faith in my Twin Flame Union, after I had been through so much. I will tell you that it was not easy. But I will also tell you that faith really does move mountains, and that by continuing to persist with the Teachings of Union in Twin Flame Ascension School that I was guaranteed my victory.
When Josh left, he changed his number. Since he’s not on social media, I had no way of contacting him or seeing how he was. I was very hurt, and all I could feel for a time was my anger and sadness leaving me. I wondered why I was experiencing this. I was tempted to compare myself to others who seemed to ‘have it so easy’ and I had to place boundaries on all the voices of doubt and fear in my mind that seemed to be growing louder.
There was Jeff and Shaleia always in my mind. “Keep going. Persist. If all you do is never give up, you can never fail.” They spoke of the spiritual process of feeling like sometimes all you do is have your nose in it for a long, long time, but you keep moving through it.
And you keep moving through it because quitting would feel worse.
You keep moving through it because of love, and because you’re worthy of it. And you’re guaranteed your victory.
From 2019 to 2022 I had gone through MAP five times for five different traumas. This isn’t always the case with everyone, but I knew there was something deeper that I needed to heal that Josh was showing me. The last MAP focused on a core trauma with my father that I had even buried from my own consciousness. I finally understood why I reacted and responded to situations the way I did, and I was finally able to let go of resentment and have compassion for myself and Josh.
I was able to value Joy and play and experience deep happiness. I started playing video games regularly and through this process saw and healed even more. I was beginning to navigate my upsets more fluidly, and starting to feel a consistent peace, a consistency unlike any I had ever experienced.
Victorious, Permanently
In November, 2022, I heard a notification sound on Discord. I couldn’t believe my eyes: there was Josh requesting friendship with me.
I added him.
For weeks there was nothing. I was starting to get bothered by that little green dot next to his name.
Finally, I asked him: Why did you add me? We began chatting and for a time, all we could be was friends.
In January we saw each other for the first time. Josh told me had been in recovery programs and that he was working a job at a restaurant. We began to hang out more as friends, and he came over several times. We would play video games together and cooked and ate dinner together.
With my coach Alexandra, I was sharing all of this, and that I was worried about going deeper. I didn't want to repeat anything from the past, and I wanted to make sure our Union was solid. I didn’t want to share any news only to have this fall apart again. She helped me move through my feelings and invited me to go one step at time and ground.
Josh and I were doing well. One month. Two months. Three. This was the longest stretch of time we had gone without having a reactive fight. Josh had a few moments of relapse, but instead of losing my peace, I grounded, and healed what it showed me. I let go of trying to control it, let him be free to face his own consequences, and focused on myself. I noticed this greatly sped up his own healing process, and he was back to sobriety sooner than in the past.
I had a new stability in the amount of compassion I was able to have and experience.
And, on April 1 when Josh’s lease was over, I decided to ask him to live with me. I felt just a speck of fear, but the majority of my heart felt a deep, deep peace.
So, Josh moved in.
We have been grounding one step at a time. Through our friendship, a new energy of romance has sprouted. It wasn’t intense as in the past, it was soft, gentle and sweet.
This is where we are right now. From this energy, we had our date last night.
This is just the beginning of a new era for our union. This era is worth so much to me, and if I had to go through all the steps, all the challenges all over again, I would do it. I will always watch TFAS regularly and work with my coach regularly. I will never give up on my dreams of being an Ascension Coach with Josh by my side, with him being involved in and having rich relationships in the Church of Union.
I will never give up on my dream, and as I see Jeff and Shaleia finally bring Grace in to the world through their pregnancy, I know that anything I desire is possible because the path has been walked before. And, you can too.
