Nun veil lifted

I want to share a huge breakthrough of revealing a pattern that has persisted for as long as I can remember. It seems that men have never been attracted to me because of my religious activity or relationship with God. Even my Twin Flame, Josh, didn't seem interested in the Teachings of Union that I held so dear, or wanted to be closer with my friends or gurus,  to be involved in my spiritual community. It felt as if I was alone in my love for God, and this was a feeling that I couldn't shake. 

I vividly remember as a child watching my dad not wanting to accompany my mom to Church. This was the first time I felt the sting of rejection based on my faith. As I grew older, I realized that this feeling was not going away. Men would express interest in me, but the moment they found out that I was religious and saw how much time I spent involved in my spiritual practice,, they would back off or try to change me. I would always invite them to join me, but it felt that when I went closer to the spiritual community I was in, my former partners would grow even more distant from me. [Well, now I know it’s because they weren’t my Twin Flame and that’s why it didn’t work.] 

This reinforced a belief in me that in order to be with my romantic partner, I had to give up my relationship with God/religion, or choose religion at the expense of my romantic partnership. 

One or the other, not both. 

This was a limiting belief that I carried with me for a long time, and it caused me a great deal of pain and confusion.

It wasn't until I began working through this specific block with my coaches that I started to have big realizations and breakthroughs. Through their support, I was able to let go of this belief and see that God comes THROUGH my Twin Flame to love me. It was a profound realization that I had never expressed so succinctly. 

I also became deeply aware that the very way I am romanced is through religion and spirituality! I’ve always wanted to experience my Twin and I both actively engaged in a spiritual community together, serving together, and helping others ascend together. That it was that, and not a romantic candlelit dinner or flowers, that really did it for me in a romantic sense, and I’ve never flat-out honored that about myself before, so how could my Perfect Mirror, Twin Flame, reflect that to me if I wasn’t choosing it?  

Through this process, I learned that Josh was also deeply spiritual and that we were just believing the other wouldn't meet us in this most special place. But we were never apart there to begin with. Separation isn't real!

This realization brought a sense of peace and freedom that I had never experienced before. It allowed me to let go of the fear and insecurity that had been holding me back in my relationships. I now understand that my relationship with God is not something that I need to hide or compromise in order to be loved. In fact, it is an integral part of who I am, and the whole reason my Twin is in my life to begin with! 

Thank you so much Jeff and Shaleia, Lau and Alex, and to all the community. Amen!!